Crappy

I have a basketball tourney coming up. I'm actually extremely excited about it and all but after today's practice, I feel down in the dumps :(
My team's performance was beyond any doubt the worse in any team I've ever played in before. We didn't have the stamina to play half a game, much less a full 40 minutes. Worse part it, this was only playing against ourselves and I know how much better a few of the other teams are.

And I was totally out of it today. My aim was off. My underbaskets were unstable. I can't be the centre they want me to be.

The first match is on Saturday evening and we don't even have a working play yet. The first match is against possibly the strongest team in the tourney.
Will this be the obliteration of my team?

:(

Lemons Are Yellow

This is like the longest standing blog I've ever had... I go through my previous posts and I go "Huh? When did I write that?"
Well, I actually have nothing to write about right now. Guess cause that day Zoe said something bout me updating my blog after dunno how long with two sentences so here I am.
It's way past 2 sentences now :D Yay Me!
I dunno what to write about...
Hei, you know how some times you look at someone and wonder "Hmmm, do I know that person?"
That happens to me a lot.
Like a loooooooot.
Mostly when that person is smiling at me or waving or something.
Worse still if that person suddenly comes up to you at the Taman Connaught pasar malam and goes "Hei Niyi! Remember me?!"
You would think that in such a crowd you could easily blend in and not be put in a situation like that.
And in my defence, I think it is very normal to reply 'yes' to that question without thinking!
I mean it's common courtesy, hello?!
And of course when that person asks "OK, so what's my name?" then you're screwed.
Like, who the hell asks that question?
If someone say "Yes I know you." then just take it as yes she knows you!
I mean like what is in a name, a rose by any other name would smell as sweet right?
By the way, first lesson of this post. When someone tests whether you remember her name or not, randomly firing a few names that pops into your head is not a very smart choice.
Neither is telling her "Fine I don't remember your name." after a few failed attempts.
Somebody should seriously write a book about what to do when you're caught in a stupid situation like that.
OK, for your future convenience, I shall give a few pointers.
One, take control of the conversation! See, if you keep talking and firing the questions, she'd have no time to grill you. And when you're finally at a lost of distractions, say "Oh my friends are waiting so I better go now. Bye~" You may even add 'take care' at the end to make it sound as if you care. Cause honestly, I do care. Even if I don't remember your name or how I know you.
And yes I assumed you're there with a friend cause if you were walking about the mall or pasar malam all alone then well, maybe you should sit at home instead...
Two.
OK.
I have no two.
I just thought it'd be cool if I kinda make like a point form presentation. Makes me feel like I'm giving useful information to my lil' minions.
Bow to me!!!!

Late Is The New In Thing

SLURRIE!!!!!
I sooooo did not forget your birthday OK?
But I've been kinda busy these days so haven't been able to come online.
And unlike Farhan n MS some idiot didn't give me her handphone number so I couldn't text you.
Again, I sooooooo did not forget OKIE??????

Anyways....

Happy Birthday Hammie :D

You

I'm sick of waiting.
Stupid imaginations take hold of me.

I won't live to see another day I swear it's true.

Now I know.
Now I'm sure.
This exam will kill me!!!


:(

Pinch of Salt

I've recently (as in this morning) developed a new analogy to describe life.

I think I should also use this time to inform you insignificant non-existent readers of this half dead blog that you should all marvel at the speed by which I am able to come up with philosophies of life. It took me all but 3 minutes to come up and complete the said analogy.
Yes Hammie, I'm a genius!
Anyways, returning to the awesome (cause it came from me) analogy.
I think life is like a blind roller coaster ride in a amusement park.
I don't know who would create a blind ride lah but basically it means you can't see the tracks before you get on it.
So, here goes.
Like all things in life (which is ironic cause I'm using this to describe life and yet life is used to explain this), there are all sorts of roller coaster. You have those ugly boring ones such as the one in Genting.
Yes I'm cheap and I got this considerably pretty looking picture of the Cockscrew* of someone else's blog..
And then there are the cool ass ones like Millenium Force from Cedar Point.
The other more important similarities between a roller coaster ride and life is:
1) The better the ride, the longer you'll have to wait in line.
2) You'll never have to ride it alone cause more often than not, there will always be someone sitting beside you.
But sometimes, you get so scared of what lies ahead that you can't feel that person holding on to you tightly...
3) There'll definitely be ups and downs and in most cases some turn-arounds. Then there are the boring parts where you get started but if you think further ahead you know there'll be a thrill waiting at the bend.
4) Through all these ups and downs, the person sitting beside you will still be sitting beside you.
5) Since it's a NiYi's hypothetical blind roller coaster, you can never tell how long it'll last of what lies ahead.
6) When it finally does end, you can always get back in line or go find another ride.
7) Whichever ride you choose to take next, it's for you and the other guy / girl to decide whether you'll ride it together again or not.
People say when you're younger, it's so much easier to fall in love.
And I think this is true... Because when you're younger, you have more time to go to all the amusement parks in the world to try out each ride, and your heart is better built to handle the excitement and horror that the journey will bring.

So my point here is, to the person I developed this analogy for, you've got the realise that the most important point in this journey is to never stop getting in line for the next ride.
It's OK to take a step back and have a lil' breather now and again but you know you've got to get back on it once you're ready to.

Here's another thing to remember.
99.9999% of the time, the roller coaster has enough safety measures to ensure that you'll come out of the ride safe and sound.


*The ride looks kinda OK-ish and pretty in this picture but truth is, it SUCKS ass through a freaking straw!

Ways To Procrastinate

I have exams in17 days. Yes, exactly 17 days. What have I been doing this morning?
Well, I woke up at 8.30am, thought "WTH THIS IS A SUNDAY!" and rolled around on my bed. But of course, hostel life having reduced me to a single bed, the obstacles in my way proved high and many. Since I'm such a genius, after a couple of position changes and skilled maneuvers , I was able to get a few good rolls.
Then by 9 I thought "Shucks, time to study.. :("
Oh but wait! I haven't went to the gym in a whole week! Health is definitely way more important than an exam that would prove insignificant were I to die of some pulmonary embolysm as a result of my highly sedentary life, right?
So I skipped and hopped away to gym to restore myself to at least half my former glory (in physical prowess).
Gym went on, yada yada yada. Oh my god while in the locker room I accidentally walked into a corridor where this lady was changing so she was like stark naked!
In case any guy out there is thinking "PICTURES!!!", let me reassure you that I did right by not taking any photographic evidence.
She looked like she could kill an elephant by sitting on it.
Mean! I know....
After gym there I was again thinking "Fine, study then."
Hei! I haven't had fruits in a long time! :) off grocery shopping~ Skippaty skippaty skip.
After dilly dallying everywhere picking up nonsensical snakcs and etc, I finally resigned myself to going home and packing to go to school.
On my way to school, I realised it would be so much easier if I just went to the food court now and packed my lunch instead of making a separate trip later... So again. Skippaty skippaty skip to Medan to buy me some food.
Fine, 4 hours after I wake up, I'm finally at school to study.
But then, there's so little people in uni today that the internet connection must be pretty fast. Why waste such a good opportunity eh? I should go youTube all the things I want and surf around a bit. It's a Sunday anyway :)
So here I am. 2pm with 17 days till exams and nothing to show for it.
Slur, aren't you proud of me?

In case you're gonna say no. I've got news for you sista!
I went for a pedi/manicure on Friday XD
My hands look like some male hand with pink nailpolish on. Tranny!

Sorry You Had To Hurt Your Hand With My Face

Don't go looking anymore.
Let's not waste anymore time dreaming;
cause dreams only last a night.
Tell me,
I'll make your dreams come alive.

I'm mixed up In My head

You feel invincible.
You feel on top of the world.
You think "This is the life."
Suddenly, you're falling..

I'm getting used to smiling everyday.
I'm getting used to laughing everyday.
I'm getting used to being genuinely happy.

Being too happy makes me scared.
The higher I climb, the harder I'll fall.
I think I've lost perspective of my life.
I'm letting the days and nights get to me.
I need to wake up... before this dream turns into a nightmare.

I don't want to be this happy...
I know it sounds selfish.
But I really don't.
I know what awaits at the end of this tunnel.

Ran Do M Ness

Found this from a friend's Facebook page. Can't help but wanna share it with people...

All I want is that one person, who will care beyond what's expected. Who will try to be the number one person in my life, and won't give up if it takes time. I want someone who will love me for me, who will notice me even when the rest of the world doesn't. That one person, who even if they don't quite agree with what I do will still be there no matter what decision I make.

I want to be loved...

Hold Your Own

What I want will eventually kill me from inside...



Help ain't on the way is it?

Know your name, go your own way.


I wish I could send me back... I'm sure I'm still under warranty.

Batik

The last person to be left alone with my thoughts is me...

The idea that you could break me so easily scares me.

What Separates Me From You

I thought religion is about loving thy neighbours and understanding and good values in general. I don't get it when people allow this to come between each other....
Why should you care if people are of different beliefs as long as they (as people i.e. fathers sons daughters friends) are good inside?
We might look, talk and think different but ultimately, all of us have 22 pairs of autosomal chromosomes with 2 sex chromosomes... that is unless you're born with a disease or something. Even so we're taught to not discriminate against the less-fortunate. So why see each other as different when we're not? Why let minuscule issues such as differing opinions that will bring no harm to each other become an obstacle in a relationship (of any kind)?


People have corrupted too many things in life already. Don't let something that was intended to show love become a breeding ground for hate.
If you really do believe in religion and god and everything else you choose to believe in, then believe that others have the right to view the same issue from different angles, that you can't always be right and that diversity is supposed to allow organisms to increase their chances of survival against epidemics and bottleneck situations.

You Give It All But I Want More

Do good days come less often, so that when it does come, it seems more precious?


On a bed of nails you make me wait, and I'm waiting for you, with or without you..

Weirdness!

I just had this weird Alice in Wonderland sort of nightmare thing. And funniest of all, I remember all of it!

It started out with Cheryl and I out together which in itself is strange because we don't go out together alone now do we? You know I mean like we normally go out with Sam etc.
OK so we were out at some place that strangely enough looked very much like Pacific Mall which is some crappy little mall here in Butterworth. While we were there this high school friend of mine came up to us and I didn't realise the strangeness of this until I woke up - Cheryl started talking to her like old friends but I forgot her name her age her everything. So yeah the friend conveniently reminds us that we have an exam right there and then and somehow Cheryl won't stop talking to her even though we were like crazy late already.
So, I ditched Cheryl to run to school but then halfway through I didn't want to leave her alone so I stopped to wait for her then this basketball team mate of mine showed up and gave me the biggest "I know your secret" grin. Which is weird cause even I don't know I had a secret. After that grin and she passed me by Cheryl showed up and she didn't want to talk to me because I ditched her like that.

We rushed to school together and when we reached there there was this strange like um... You know the police academy system in Japan? You have to like finish your basic education then you can join the academy then you get to move up the steps and ranking type of thing. So the school had these steep stairs that symbolised that system and every time there's an exam there'll be a ledge to climb. There I was running up the steps and pulling with my whole body not to fall when all of a sudden my body starts aching and I remembered that (in real life) I've been doing a lot of push ups out of boredom and my arms are failing me. This is the point where I thought "Hei, I don't remember seeing these steps before. Why didn't I just use the normal easy route I always used?"
But by then I was too high to go down so I had to fight on all while Cheryl was climbing normal small little steps beside me. Don't ask why I didn't just go join her.
So then we arrive at school and the paper has already started so Cheryl goes into her room and I go into mine. But then, my room didn't have an invigilator! And I was the first seat of the row and Laveena was sitting behind me! All this is strange because I'm always the last seat and Christine is the one near me.

So no invigilator = no exam paper. I had to rush to Cheryl's room to ask for help from the other invigilator and just as the teacher comes over, the lights in my room goes out. BUT!
But the teacher doesn't do anything and just goes "I don't have the papers, just sit down and do your own thing."
What the hell! The room was pitch black and I had no questions to answer for an exam and nobody was helping me!
This is when I sat down and Laveena kindly tells me there are extra papers under the desk so I go take 'em and get ready to rock & roll but then I find out the subject of the paper...

It's Bahasa Melayu!!!

Sad.nap

Someday someone is gonna ask me why I'm doing all this for and I'll have nothing to show for it.

Absolutely nothing.

Tried To Be Chill But You're So Hot That I Melted

To be nobody but yourself in a wold which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

- E. E. Cummings

I Am in Need of Music

I am in need of music that would flow Over my fretful, feeling fingertips, Over my bitter-tainted, trembling lips, With melody, deep, clear, and liquid-slow. Oh, for the healing swaying, old and low, Of some song sung to rest the tired dead, A song to fall like water on my head, And over quivering limbs, dream flushed to glow! There is a magic made by melody: A spell of rest, and quiet breath, and cool Heart, that sinks through fading colors deep To the subaqueous stillness of the sea, And floats forever in a moon-green pool, Held in the arms of rhythm and of sleep. - Elizabeth Bishop

Someday

I'm falling when I shouldn't be,
I'm crashing where I couldn't be.

Where are you, Slur?

H-WHat do you care?

I don't think you can promise someone you will never let them fall.
You don't have the power to always let them hang on to you. Sooner or later people have to fall. And the fall is what makes the person who they are.

Fortunately, you can stand up with that person forever... if you wanted to. That is if that person chooses to make a stand. If they don't then what's the point, right?
Just remember that mountains are always easier to climb when you have someone to walk the steps with you.

So be there for them through it all?

We don't really know how much we're capable of until you find that one person you're willing to lose it all for. At least that's how I feel.
Look deep down and you can find the strength to be the one.


Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

I'm not supposed to be here.
Someone told me I can't blog till the exams are over. I don't know why I'm listening. By then I won't have time to blog anymore. That's kinda stupid don't you think?

Anyways, less than 2 days to go.

Fight, babes. Fight.

Think

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question. What's worse, not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough?
The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now.

-Haley James-Scott, One Tree Hill

Who I was wasn't me.

Damn... I forgot what I wanted to write... Again. Again, as in I thought of what I wanted to write yesterday morning, forgot it by evening, remembered it again when I woke up today. And now I lost it again. Something to do with waking up, perhaps?
I've been thinking (Again, I know) lately and I kinda like reflected upon my life (Waaa, reflection eh! Cool right?). What I've gathered is that just like life is filled with sad times and happy times, it's also filled with good and bad people.
Some where out there some bimbo is going "Oh my god, it took her THINKING and REFLECTING to realise this? What is she, an idiot?"
Just so you know, I did know this like we know that time shall move and the sun shall rise. But have you ever actually thought about it? About why time moves and doesn't stop and what exactly is time but the mechanical movement of a needle on a face that has numbers inscribed upon it?

You know there are good people out there because there are a few (very very few) who put themselves in harm's way in a selfless act of compassion. And you know there are (a whole lot) of bad people out there because there's that woman who killed her pregnant friend with a table leg and dug out the fetus and bla bla bla.
Yeah of course we do, we read them in the papers all the time! OK, I don't read but I'm guessing some people might.
How much of these stories apply to you? I for one will admit that I've never crossed paths with a serial killer before. These are just stories out there that will probably never touch your life. So how do you know that in YOUR life, there are good and bad people too? That, my friend, is where reflection comes in.

Thinking about it, forgotten names and blurred faces pass through my head. There are those people that brought sunshine to my nights, people who brought dark clouds into my days and the people who didn't have any effect on my personal solar system at all. I'm sorry to say but the last kind was my least favourite.
Don't you think you owe it to yourself to try to influence (in a positive or negative way, depending on your own liking) the world you live in?
OK, maybe not all of you are as driven in such a sense as I am but I just feel like you only have this one life. Once it's gone it's gone. So how would you like to be remembered? Worse yet, what if nobody remembers you at all? So start leaving you footprints people. Even if it be just in the sand.

In my past, there had been people who helped me grow, mature and yet still stay in touch with the part of me that still wants to climb trees and play in the rain. I hope I don't end up being the kind of person who grew up but forgot why she grew up for.
Right now, I'm sure, I want to live because I want to be able to do the things I want to do better.
What are they? Well, when I've gotten hold of them I'll remember to inform you.
When I say 'you', I don't actually know who I'm talking to. But then a lot of the time I talk to myself so I guess for me it's not so weird. An alter-ego perhaps?
I don't really remember where I was going with this.... Damn.

Oh yeah, clouds and sunshine. Well, I used to regret the wrongs I did or the dark moments I had and sometimes, even the dark clouds I met. But I seem to have reached a point of thought where I realise that giving up even a little bit of what you did would change who and where you are today by a thousand miles.
Take, for instance, the girl who nearly went to Russia and whom I would have never met if not for last-minute changes and sudden impulses.
A little bit goes a long way. I'm sure this is like a slogan for some company or something...
There's a song line by some crappy boy / girl band back in the old days (as in when I was younger) that went something like "don't give up any one of your dreams, because you never know which one you let go would have made you complete". I'm pretty sure it was Westlife.

This probably applies to your life too. Don't let go any part of your past because you never know what kind of impact a nanometer of change could have on the present. Unless you're currently in a place you don't like right now. In which case my advice would be stop regretting and start moving forward.
What I'm really trying to say is that I don't know what I did wrong or right or what I didn't do in my past that got me here, but it's safe to say that I love where I am now and I wouldn't give it back for the world.


I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind.

And the forest will give us the answers

I know I should be studying. I know I shouldn't be here. I know I shouldn't have watched 'No Country For Old Men' just now. I know a lot of things.
Unfortunately, I don't know anything about anatomy. Or immunity. Or antibiotics.
Turns out, I don't know a lot of things too.
I've managed to not finish a week of lectures in a week.
However, I've managed to finish 3 levels of Resistance, 3 movies, and catch up on The Ellen Show. A lot of accomplishments, none of them useful.
I know, I know. So go do some useful ones.
Easier said than done, eh?
Have a lot on my mind. Read me write this line too many times before?
But what is life but a cycle that repeats itself.
It ain't a mountain. It's a wheel. Ups and downs, rolls you all around. Mainly, everything just repeats itself. Might be in a different place, different time. But it's still spinning the same way it did way back when and where.
I forgot who, either Mark Twain or J.F. Kennedy, maybe not even them. Some old timer anyway. He said "three can keep a secret, if two were dead".
The question is, which two?

Dreams for Plans

I don't have anything to blog about!
Well I mean no pics. I have a lot on my mind actually.
First is the road trip we've been trying to plan but up till now seems a little messed up.
OK so here's what I've got so far.... it's gonna be like a 6-7 days trip to the east coast. We'll go to Stella's house first and crash there for a few days while she brings us around that tiny little place.
I've never been to Kuantan but I can just imagine how tiny it's going to be! I mean I met 2 very unrelated people from Kuantan this year (one of them Stella) and they know each other. And they're totally not related to each other in what-so-ever way except that they're both from Kuantan!
But I digress. Coming back...
So basically I think that tiny little itsy-bitsy place will take like 2 days and I want to go to the beach and waterfall too so Kuantan will be like 3 days. After that the package I've (actually it's Joann's) found so far for Perhentian is this 3 days 2 nights at a resort that cost like RM400. I know it's actually the correct price but I'm just hoping we can find a cheaper place or something. Hope the rest of the people don't mind paying for this (=.=")
Anyways...
So yeah, I was thinking take a bus over to Kuantan cause we can't really get a car. I don't really like buses though cause you know lah all those accidents and the time it takes and everything. Plus car = FREEDOM!
Can go crazy and show off my singing skills or something.
Oh by the way, I've decided that from now on I won't say "I'm gonna SING a song" anymore.
From now on, it's "I'm gonna READ a song".
Judging from the feedbacks I get (we all know how much Monashians love feedbacks), it sounds the same whether I sing or read or talk anyway.
I hate Stella for laughing at my absolutely superbly magnificent reading skills!
Where was I?
Oh yes, bussing there. Anyways so bus there in the morning, hopefully arrive by 3-4pm. Rest a while and get the trip started. Hmm... Actually, now that I put it this way, it doesn't seem so messed up anymore. Just need to sort the Perhentian part out and get my beach wear ready. Wooohooo~!
Oh, have you guys heard of Papaya Farm before?
It's on Perhentian and it's where the nudists go XD
Hope I can get there this time.


THANKS Mr. PAUL FOR TELLING US ABOUT PAPAYA FARM!!

But The Record Keeps Playing The Same Old Song

I just found my mom's blog! Haha. No, not my biological mom. I meant the mom from my uni a.k.a. Cheryl (^.^) a.k.a. the one who was getting her ass felt by Sam in the previous post.
If only I have pics of her... Oh wait a minute, what the hell am I talking about? Of course I do! Thank god to technology and stealing pics from Facebook. Anyway, here's one:
Now you must be wondering, why is NY posting a picture of Wonder Girl as Cheryl? Well, because while going through her (very short) blog, I found a part where she was comparing herself to Wonder Girl! Of all the superheroes available, seriously, Wonder Girl! Like, Hello? If you want a female superhero even Cat Woman does a better job! But of course we all know THE ultimate is none other than Jean Grey. But we aren't here to discuss my awesome superhero taste now are we?
No no, we are here to violate Cheryl Saw's legal and ethical rights.
So yeah Wonder Girl is like Cheryl's alter ego or something. Anyway, a little about Cheryl. She is a 19 year old girl who happens to be my mother (don't ask me how she gave birth to me when she was negative one years old). She's really smart (like the 2nd highest score during our mid-sem test) which totally shocked me cause my first impression of her was bitch / bimbo. OK the bimbo part was not too true from the start cause she doesn't have big boobs. But I digress. The bitch part I got it right thought cause she really is one (in a good way). She plays the piano, drums and basketball (dunno if there are other stuffs I haven't found out yet). She used to dance ballet *rolling on the floor laughing my ass off*. Sorry to all you hot sexy ballerinas out there but you guys just crack me up. Really.
What else?
Oh, the hardest part to believe is... SHE'S NICE!
Like actually NICE!
Really, my first impression of her was so... well, let's just say it was no where near the description "nice".
She also has a very good sense of fashion and is pretty (^.^)
All this adds up to a girl I find very admirable, amusing and at the same time intimidating. I feel threatened by her cause she really is an all-rounder.
You all know how much I hate losing...
Oh, but she's really picky with her food though. And is an absent-minded klutz who loses stuffs belonging to other people like nobody's business.
And she also runs the Cheryl's School of ProNUNciation (CSP). Make sure you get it right, "proNUNciation", not "pro-nounce-ciation".
She has this thing about getting every word right or something weird like that. She is also the first friend who actually pronounced "latter" the correct way.
I love this pic! The one standing is Sam (my babe! ... who's also my lesbian mom... OK, it's a teeny weeny bit confusing) and the one hugging her is none other than the star of this post -- Cheryl! Haha, I know it's not really a good shot of her but this camwhore posts very little pictures of herself in Facebook. But still, I like it. Now her hair is um, shorter and kinda reddish.
Oh ya Slur! You see that Skinny Bitch?
Oh wait.. Haha! She's wearing her skinny bitch T! Anyway, that skinny bitch a.k.a. Sam is so freaking tall and skinny and like a frame of bones but she's only a freaking diet! We hate these kind of people don't we?!
But she's still my babe.
Anyway, moving on..
Headmistress of CSP in another stupid pose. The arm sling is very badly done by the way, the whole hand is like.... Isn't it supposed to be horizontal?? Tzuk tzuk. No wonder she looks so miserable.
This is her hair colour now but not the style though... So in one semester, she has had 3 hairstyles? Talk about impulsive. Crappy pic but just to show you guys a pic of her.
Hmm... I wonder how she pronounces the word "martyr". Gosh, I don't even know how to spell it.
Anyways, the next pic has very little to do with Cheryl and I really don't know who the other two people are but the girl on the right just looks so.... Haha, well, she makes the pic very interesting. XD

Pursuit of Life

The previous two nights have been awesome for me. After such a long life-fast period (as in I have no life so I pretend I'm going on a fast to study / um... do nothing bla bla bla), finally seeing the sun..... I feel like just shouting "I'm alive!!" This is supposed to be like "Finally, I can breathe!" In case you guys don't get this random picture I stole from someone's deviantart. So anyways, the lowdown on my showdown. Gosh it rhymes! Yesterday after the last PCL a.k.a. the last day of class for sem 1, we had a PARTAYYYY (sponsored by the school, of course). And Dr. Lakshmi was so nice that she even bought our group a carrot cake! Delicious but unfortunately, I feel very fat now. Anyways, scenes from the party! My group even held like a private concert thingey. Slur, I sang! Hahahaha, I bet you're imagining the torture my audience was subjected to now. Evil! Oh lame moment: If my name is Seng, then I could say "Seng sing sang sung a song!" XD The cake! Phtsssss, let me tell you a secret. I ate 2 and a half pieces! Shhhh! Don't tell anyone OK? I'm trying to keep this a secret from my body so that they won't give me extra fat just to teach me a lesson bout indulgence. The last PCL group C photo T.T I hope my group next sem will be as awesome as this one. We had so much fun making stupid jokes AND smart ones! Of course, the smart ones were never contributed by me.... By the way, Aliya, regardless of how much I poke fun at your country, I would still rather get a Canadian than an American anytime anywhere. This is me and my gang being idiots. You guys better get the names of everyone in this pic down right. The left-most is the great me, of course. Beside me is Christine, then Yvonne, Rebecca, Catherine and Aliya. Yes, I'm the only one without an English name. You know why? Cause I'm the only non-banana! Ok, wait, Aliya is brown and Canadian so she can't be a banana but still... You get what I mean lah! Slur, can you believe that there are tons of people in my class who can't even speak Chinese up to my standard?! It's unbelievable. More pics of us~ This is supposed to be like a supermodel-kihiao pose but um.... Ended up looking more like a lousy train. Grr..... No idea what they were doing.... Is Aliya... slipping whil kicking Becca's butt? Anyways, just to give you an idea of the idiots I hang out with. Again, Aliya, is that a kick? Asians are definitely better at posing....(=.=") except Yvonne. Oh yeah, Slur, Yvonne is the fake-slur I was telling you about the last time. She's is really really slur. It's like you guys are somehow related or something. And finally *drum roll please* time for the concert!!!!!
*Damn. Can't load the vid. I'll load it later.*
This is Gavin the wannabe leader singing (in case his voice is so horrible that you guys can't make it out) Britney's Oops I Did It Again. It was hilarious. Especially the part where Sandeep (the guy at the start of the video) comes into our room just to laugh at Gavin. XD Then there's also a video of me and the rest of the people singing Hot by Avril! Haha, lucky their voice drowned my.... talented in some twisted artistic way voice out. OK, so that was just the morning of Friday. Afterwards, we went to watch Indiana Jones! It was soooooo awesome! Seriously, if you haven't watched it yet, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE?!??! But I can't believe that Evonne and a few of the girls fell asleep. Patrik slept too but then he does lack some testosterone so I can understand why he didn't like it. It was awesome! I'm gonna sing the Indiana Jones theme song everytime I walk into a room now :) After that, Sam and a few people went home while me, Cheryl, Stella and Hui Ruan stayed for dinner. We ate Vietnamese, went broke and then went shopping! Haha, I didn't but Stella needed some flats. Due to her um, unfortunate vertical position, she feels the need to always wear a minimum of 2-inch heels. Of course we all know how horrible heels are and how much they hurt so you can actually see what it has done to her feet. So as good friends, we decided to force her to buy her first-ever flats. Seriously, this girl has enough clothing items to drown the whole of Penang but no flats AT ALL. After changing into the comfy flats, she felt more like walking so we went for a "long kai". I learned a new Cantonese word! That means "drive around". So we just drove and drove and drove until I decided to stop polluting the earth and killing polar bears so the great Cheryl lead us to a coffee shop to just sit and talk. When I said "coffee shop" I was imagining at least like an Oldtown. She, however, brought us to... a roadside mamak.... Awesome *roll eyes* As for Saturday... Early morning, I woke up and went to play basketball. Didn't really play cause my knees were killing me. At 9, Stella and I went to school to wait for Samantha to come pick us up and go for dim sum. However, when we reached school, Sam called Cheryl to ask how far she is and guess what? Cheryl just woke up. Again... Awesome *roll eyes* So we wait and we waited and we waited. After ONE FREAKING HOUR, Cheryl finally appears but by that time, I had to go fetch my bro to the bus station. So I decided to go back but then Cheryl felt bad (cause I LOOVEEE dim sum) and said she'll follow me and after that we'll try to find the dim sum shop together. However, the catch is this: Both of us don't know where the shop is. So, after sending my bro off, we went on our first adventure of the day to find the Hong Kee Dim Sum! It was really either a very huge stroke of luck or Cheryl was hiding her navigating talents somewhere but amazingly, we got there (which was kinda far) without getting lost even once! Of course there were moments of doubt and thinking "Holly shit" but all in all, we didn't get lost!

By the way, the dim sum there was pretty good. I ate enough to feed a country.

Afterwards I went home and showered then went back to school to study.
That's us studying. Sam the pervie and Cheryl the victim!
We studied and studied until dinner time when we thought "OK, dinner then back to study". Again, Sam took us to some weird place that no one knew about and we had dinner. Unfortunately, by that time my gastric was back again so I felt like puking all the way through and couldn't eat. But that's not the case here. After eating, we were supposed to go back and study but I duno how that translated to going long kai again. So there we were, out on the streets again two nights in a row. This time, we put on some music and sang (mostly me entertaining them with my amazingly monotonous voice) till my lungs wanted to burst. Seriously, Stella couldn't help admiring how horrible my voice is. None of them could do what I was doing because all of them have some music background but they were all amused and in awe of my abilities. The worst part of all this admiration is, I was really really trying to sing properly....

HappYness Is Not That Bad

I've finished my PCL and Case Commentary!! You have no idea how happy that tought makes me =D and also the fact that next week is the start of my holidays (and study week for exams .. T.T) Oh, and I finished the card we were making for Dr. Lakshmi.

AND another fact that tomorrow I only have a two hour class!
Gosh, this is the day that things go right. Happyness!
Please stop bugging me to update my blog ok? I have no life to blog about!
So here goes, I like being chronological but we all know how messed up I am inside. So shhhh! OK? Don't tell anyone. By the way, SLUR I MISS YOU!!!!
JC doing the.... in her very own words, "thingy-majingy". Seriously, she can be presenting in a very serious thing and suddenly just go "Oh wait, what's that thingy-majingy?" Thanks for always letting me eat your sandwich :)
Usher pretending to contribute. I know your name ain't spelt that way lah but who cares?
Some classmates out on a trip that I didn't get to follow! T.T why?? Because I was having a no-life day.
GOTH DOCS!! Awesome!! This is my PCL group. It's out last PCL together tomorrow (aka today), so sad :(
Waiting for Cheryl to come! We were celebrating her birthday on the skybridge.
Three scary babes. The two on the right are scary.... even without all the make up. Seriously, don't let their smiley faces fool you. Especially JC, she's...... indescribable.
I'm normal!
Group goth on skybridge using Cheryl's birthday as a reason to cam-whore. I can't believe I'm becoming one of THEM too..
Turtle goth?? (=.=")
IDIOT DOCS!
We seriously weren't doing anything but decided to pretend to look smart but then look at Adnan! We all look down he stare straight into the cam pulak!
That's why we ended up taking this....
Aww~ So sweet! Haha. FYI, they ain't a couple. I'm rooting for Adnan and Jessrin. Lucky they don't read this blog (^.^)V
Erm..... I would like to go "aww~ so sweet!" again but.... Um....
Silence is golden!
By the way, that's Terence on the left and Ron on the right.
Becky being vain =] but she still looks so cute so it's OK.
Adnan getting what he deserves! But he's seriously cool man. Before coming to study here he worked in the ambulance service for his NS (he's from S'pore). He saw so many seriously cool cases! *shrieks* like people hanging themselves to death and one lady fell from dunno how many stories then her face smashed into a pole or something and got cut in half. Literally! And the brain fell out. OMG!
Bimbo blog, here I come! *grins* again, SLUR I MISS YOU!

And he created man in his image?

You know some times you have this image of a person and you're so comfortable and completely confident of that image you hold, thinking that "That's it. That's who he/she is."
Then something is revealed and all you're left with is fragments of a picture you once held.
I know learning good things about someone, especially a friend, is always a good thing and I won't ever regret getting to know them better but I'm just saying this because after 20 years of life, I've finally noticed it.
I don't really know what I'm talking about here. Guess I just had a really depressed-night. As in a night filled with depression (not necessarily mine and not necessarily generated by one person only). I actually like depression. I feel guilty when I'm happy, there's just something in me that tells me I don't have the right to be. Weird, eh?
Anyway, about the revelation. Well, like I said, I'm all for social bonding and after what was said, I don't find myself feeling differently about the speaker. I just viewed that person in a different light which I would really like to stress is not a bad thing. Honestly, it's not. I'm actually happy it happened (not for my sick depression-phile reason) but because knowledge can only make you wiser, right?
Everybody has their own weaknesses and their dark moments, but I believe it is our duty as habitants of this planet to live through it. I don't believe in god (I actually have the courage to say it out loud now) so I can't offer advice like some supernatural being will always be with you kinda thing, but I do know that a human being will be there for you. And it might take a lot of effort and a humongous torchlight to find those people, but they are there. And they will care.
To quote Peyton from One Tree Hill, "There are more than 6 billion people in this world, sometimes all you need is one." All you NEED is one, but more often than not, you'll get more than one. And I say this from the experience of being a very troubled and twisted person. No matter how many batteries or nuclear reactors you need to deploy to power your torchlight just to find the hands out there waiting to pull you up and out, it's worth the fight.
After all, if we don't fight to live, aren't we just living to die?

The Way We Were

I'm doing some read-ups on stress management in relation with the theory that psychological stress affects our risk of developing cancer. In one of the sites, a technique called Imagery is used. Basically it's remember something that soothes and relaxes you like the way your mom's cooking taste or the coffee shop at the corner of your old house. Something like that.
When I tried it on myself, the first thought that came was the day I spent with Shirling and Stef hiking Kerachut and the fun we had on the beach. I didn't know Stef before then and I kinda had a negative image of her but that day, I was taught the evils of prejudice and being judgmental.
Now, I remember that day as the best day I've had in the past couple of years. It sounds lame, just 3 girls on an empty beach (it really is empty because not many people know about it and it takes an hour or more of hiking to reach it). But the truth is, that day was bliss.
Too bad the people that matter will never see this post.And too bad I don't have any pictures to remember that day by.

Too Much Too Early

Just got back from Beijing!
The "!" is cause I'm happy I'm back, not cause it's Beijing... Lots to post bout lots of stories. Will probably end up not posting most of them though. I ain't in denial.
Anyway, some pics from before I went to Beijing. It was sort of a day out plus Terrence's birthday. Had fun~
This was at Pavillion's Red Box PLUS. I have no idea what difference PLUS or no PLUS makes but it seemed like it mattered to them. A few hours of polluting this world with my beautiful voice. Joann (girl getting Choke of Death by Patrik) sang quite horribly too so it's OK. (^.^)
This was before we went in. I was supposed to do some ultra cool pimp pose but shy shy lah~ Haha.
Oh, and this is even before the Pavillion! At the MUMedS BBQ before the clubbing night thing where Chris got drunk.
Group pic of BBQ! The girl with the horns next to me is Usher (or Ah Sher... Not really sure how to spell.. Oh, I found out recently that she has a REAL name! *shock*). The girl on my other side is Evonne (who really looks like Mei) and the guy beside her is Yin Qian (who's really really hitting on her hard). Then there's Ali (right) and Vin sitting on the floor. And Joann beside Usher... Basically, it's a long list.
Another group pic showing even more nerds! Haha, looks like our number is strong enough for world domination! Muahahaha~ Oh no, I just realised a few people on the right got their face cut off. Dang.... Ooo, Usher is standing beside me again. And see the guy at Usher's 2 o'clock?
His name is Ping Tet and he can really sing man. Like honestly in the big voice sing. Not the pop star sing type. I'm VERY glad he didn't go to the Red Box thing... He's from Penang too so yeah~ Penang Rulez.

Near Far Wherever You Are

It's been soooo long since I've last posted, right?
Between the last post and now a LOT has happened, but the main thing is I've finished my mid-sem summative exams!!!!
Haha, I never knew how stressed I was about it until the end of it. But then by then it was too late for me to do any Progressive Muscle Relaxation Techniques. For those of you how don't know what PMR is, it's something Monash is making us go through because they're afraid we might get too stressed and conform to the statistics that says we'll eventually become depressed alcoholics with psychiatric morbidity. Instead of PMR, they should either just reduce the amount of things we have to learn or make school sponsored FUN trips for us. Those makes so much more sense. And for those of you who laugh when we do something, go to hell! Nerds can party too!
I took a lot of pics between then and now but not all of them are with me now, so I'll just make do with what I have.
Don't need what I have not, right?
Oh yeah, and another major thing that happened is I lost my wallet. No biggie though.
I have no idea if I've posted this already.... This is a pic of the cultural morning we had. Every Friday is theme day so we basically dress up like idiots. The girl on the right most is Evonne (she's really pretty and has a HOTTT body... REALLY HOT), the girl in the middle is Joanne (hope I spelled it right), next is JC and the left-most is Jess the really pretty Indian girl. REALLY pretty.
This is Reb (right) and Chris on the cultural morning too. Later, we shall observe how Chris looks after more than 4 standard drinks in 2 hours.
This is Bibi Zarah on the same day but at night tie. She's from Mauritius which is an island country so basically, people walk around in bikinies and board shorts.
This is (L-R) Catherine, Yvonne and Reb. I have to cherish this pic cause this is one of the very few pics where Yvonne isn't doing some stupid pose. We were at the cafetera and since Chris was preoccupied talking to some other friend, we decided to cam-whore while waiting for her.

I know I say I don't like taking pics of food, but this place was awesome! It's at Kota Kemuning and the shop is called Tropical Secrets. Not onlt is the food good, the price is unbelievable also. And that white drink you see there, I don't know what it's called but I've never drank any juice that nice before. No idea what the fingers are doing...
After exams, it's chill out time! Reb is really concentrated on getting the Stack Up right but I really don't know what Stella is looking so intensely at. Is that a spoon? Is she looking at her food? By the way, we were at YogurBerry. The yogurt was pretty good.
The girl on the right is Cheryl. Sorry I can't get a clear pic of you! She's like my mommy. So nice.
I'm vain. So what?
Chris and Aliya... Drunk. There's a lot more pics and a huge story behind that night.... Might post some other time.

I Need A Bigger World

You know what?? I was telling Slur (my really close ally from college) about Bitch and she was totally on my side all along so I thought like "Muahahahahaha~".
Then today I go check Facebook and see "Sieu Ming and Su Peng are now friends".
I just went like WTF?!?!?!
Then I remembered that Bitch is from Penang too (Argh, so insulting. My beautiful Penang has been raped by her presence!!)
So in my mind I said all the prayers I could think of (I realised I don't know too many. In fact... I know none!) and clicked on "Su Peng" hoping against hope that it wasn't Bitch but kinda knowing it is cause Slur seems to know like more than half the people from Penang. Lo and behold, I was greeted by this:
I've done some modifications because I feel my beloved Penang being defiled is bad enough. I don't need my blog getting the same molestation too.
This is outrageous! Slur! I demand that you delete her!
Grrrrrrrr.....

So This Is What It Feels Like

Screaming like a baby in the womb
Silent screams I'll take to my tomb
Standing here in the same room
In a corner that won't fit two
My hopes and dreams I put on view
My sorrow my pain. Unknown to you

Lalalalalala~

I know it's kind of a little late for this, but what the hell is the Chinese cheng beng and burning things all about?!
Seriously, in this day and age, people who still believe in these kinds of stuff??
OK, let me explain why this is so freaking ridiculous.
IT POLLUTES THE EARTH!
Not enough? Fine. Here's more.
Let's see what happening here. Your ancestors died and went to heaven (hopefully *roll eyes*). He reaches heaven and then what?
In case you guys don't understand here. "Heaven" is supposed to be a place of eternal paradise or whatever crap the believers would like to say it is. No matter what race, religion or ethnic you are, it always comes back to the fact that heaven is a place of endless happiness and hell is a place of unconditional suffering.
But if living humans have to burn offerings to the dead ones to provide all the cars, credit cards, China Dolls (maybe in the future anti HIV medicine to combat the affects those dolls will bring) etc etc, that basically means there's nothing there? Heaven is just this vast field of clouds?
The fact that there's nothing there isn't even the worse point.
It's the fact that even after leaving this material world of pain and death, you eventually (still) have to rely on the mortal beings for your own happiness?!
The idea that burning things produces smoke which moves upwards and hence it moves to heaven is so primitive even Tarzan would have laughed his loincloth off!
If this theory sticks, do you realise that most of our pollution is produced by some form of heat towards a material hence producing chemical fumes that move UPWARDS? Basically we're saying every time the lorry or the bus accelerates and a thick fume of black toxin comes out of the exhaust pipe, it's actually making an offering to the deads?
Lessons we've learnt up till now. One, there's nothing in heaven (even though it's supposed to be a land of eternal happiness). Two, heaven is even more polluted than earth (as if that's possible).
The good side it, it was them who polluted it and it's them who will suffer later. I guess life (or death) is fair after all.
And the other problem here is that these people are burning paper.
PAPER.
Again, main problem, it pollutes the earth!
But let's stop being such environmentalist and just think rationally again.
Are you offering a symbol or are you offering the real deal?
To phrase it better, "are your believes for real?"
Because if all you're doing is offering a symbol then for god's sake PLEASE stop burning and making life miserable for all of us!
But if you're a true believer, why the F are you burning paper stuff?
Are you so unfilial that you want your ancestors to drive around in paper cars, fill petrol at paper pumps, whip out the paper plastics (plastics as in credit cards) to pay for it and then zoom off to have some screws with the paper China Dolls?
And get paper HIV? Plus, since a lot of people die of old age, won't you need to burn some Viagra to?
Is that the kind of life you would want the people who brought you into this life to have?
Is that how you treat the people who nurtured you and fed you? By giving them burnt up paper stuffs in return?
Shame on you!
And the sickest part is, he's gonna be screwing a paper thing!
This is even worse than blow up dolls.